| These are poem of the
pain of my life ..my life is filled with love, passion
and pain take my hand and walk through the dark heart of the vampyress and know there is healing for us all in words of pain... the other side of love is emptiness ,but i promise to bring you back to love for what is love without sorrow , we all grow through it . |
| With stabs in my back i grow weary crimson tears of betrayal . lies are deadly people are crushed innocents hurt for the selfish and greed Head games ripping flesh hearts that knew love now empty never to mend power trips ego boast for the insecure Fake words false love , hidden motives gutton for praise from anywhere cry wolf too many times no one listens i hear no more i have closed the tunnel no light no sound only pain i am now numb to it all |
....................................................................... | Dreams
of the Heart |
| In silent skies she
does fly onward moving fast and high where she goes in darkest nites moving quickly to seek and find things that bring her peace of mind in dreams she wander ssearching far making wishes in the stars will alone she always be shall happiness soon find her at last or will the cycle simply last in silver moon beams she searchs the nite seeking shelter to be held tight angels wings carry her flight could this nite be the nite The huntress who hungers for so much more returns back home and through her door alone to lay upon her bed her lips of traces of blood she fed her life isnt one that is easily to explain at times her tears they fall like rain of haunted heat and darkest soul wild sensual hungers never told Oh taking her pleasures without fail but still alone to tell her tale In her dreams she holds him tight and only then does it feel right endless times she wishes never to rise yet when she awakens the dream dies Oh man of darkness where are thee come and take her and set her free you of hell fire's darkest nights take your dark angel and hold her tight |
......................................... | Unwraped
presents |
| Empty alone i sit and listen to the sounds of emptiness singing to me , the one with empty arms and broken dreams everything i ever wanted , seems unreachable or taken by another Is fate a cruel prankster , with an unfunny joke? i wonder at times ,if Destiny has deemed me to wander all alone never knowing a lovers caress,or the passion in his eyes at times the longing is maddening the tears fall and melt into my pillow the lonliness enveloping me once again i curse my longing soul i watch others and still can smile at their joy but at times , the hurt is raw a reminder of what i dont have and maybe never will No lovers laughter or knowing smiles no cuddles in the break of day light my words heard whispered in the darkness only by my goddess and me so many broken dreams , promises all came to me times past but do nothing in the now for now i am alone in my bed and life with unanswered songs never touching the realness of a lovers face and hair only staring at the space of nothing and feeling more alone then i ever belived i could Never did i belive i would end up this way to end each day hungering for the touch of the one i love But he isnt here , the dark prince of my longings Screaming in my mind , shattering my heart like broken glass, i am tired of all alone i face alone the day in my bed ,noctural angel all alone in the void of emptiness that is my world |
......... | REVENGE
!!!! |
| as a little girl she was tattered and torn as a child she was cold and alone..... as a teen she was violated trust was destroyed.. no one came to save her heart nor her soul she closed off her self never to let anyone inside away safe from love she ran to hide. fear kept her safe always loved , unable to truly love the wall loomed and kept her safe. as a woman , she grew to be cold such an ice princess all so alone.... his name , one day come to her from a friend the reign of the ice princess came to an end . she listened to his heart and looked at his pictures and she was forever changed gone were the memories of a mothers boyfriend who raped and took her youth gone were the filthy hands groping her as a young girl, come on little song bird as managers and agents , tried to make her while her mother who's heart went cold,she just said sing little songbird sing..and closed her eyes . refusing to see , that all this was killing the song bird 's will to love. her mother said take what you can get it was on this she was raised she ran to a husbands arms while still a child hot grease tossed on her back sckull fractures and a coma were the answers she got so again she was alone and learned to be lonely until the day she saw this picture of the one she had always saw in dreams she had laughd away. he could never be , but then she did see his face, heard his words and knew here fially was he , the one she knew only from her dreams , he had another fear struck in.......she many love her so very many men , she couldnt let in.. but this man...well he had a key little song bird .....you know its not for her to ever win...... the worst enemy she has ever had was , her loss to accept love to show it even to really know it so she told her love, a sad goodbye and over him she will forever cry now her soul has learned , sad sad fact when you lose the perfect love you shall never get it back she ran to one who loved her so knowing that her true love would surely go but then againshe always did know that for her love and happiness was never to be so.. |
................................................ | ode to
sleeping alone |
| Razor song he appears ,meets your eyes shouldnt come as a surprise sitting there , room spins round whiskey running through your head all you felt now is dead crimson sliver run anew come on baby sing the razor song cleansing rivers ,stop the pain endless nights alone finally took its toll fate pointed it finger said i want you the rythmn of the music it sings to your heart bleed baby , bleed just for me sweet death's seduction come dance with your demons they miss you so come baby sing the razor song kisses and whispers tried to run from us but we think you should know we are here waiting now its time to go child of darkness , child of song Home is where hell is come on baby sing the razor song walk with me now come along you had your time you sang your song , ,the show is over now come along slice it deeply dont take too long bleed out all the pain such pretty red rain dont say it will hurt, lil songbird in this life you've known worse rape and misjudgement love for you is just a curse come now childe your pain is through my dark wings here spread to enfold you come on baby sing the razor song you know the words ,they come to you off to nothing together we sail sleep among the starlight wash down the pain drink that fire water perfect for you demon daughter funny thought you had silly silly you,that happiness would find and come save the day come on dark angel tell me true ,did you think that could happen to one such as you? bleed and cry ,take my hand come find peace and and sleep so true let my arms come hold you come on baby sing the razor song |
....................................... | Long
Is The Night |
| The Dark Angel's Loss sadness enfold my heart i know now we must part i of darkness you of light love cant end the eternal fight what she is she can not change i go on as i , have always been and you travel your own road it was a beautiful trip we took in the shadows where we met and the love i had for you i will never forget so when you walk through darkness and a you feel the caress of starlight know that it was the one who loves you so as she reaches through the shadows into the only spot she can touch she watches you in the light and loves you still even though she couldnt be what you wanted and she had to let you go her heart now is empty her soul awaits the end of its time in this life hopefully the in his mercy the hand of death will end this walk alone she is child of darkness , he was child of light love was caught forever in between this fight the shadows were the only place that they could meet and love she couldnt go into the light and couldnt rise above so sadly now she walks alone her eyes they fill with tears her heart fills up with sorrow weighed down with loss |
........................................... | The Is
No light Here |
| Hide away welcome to the hideaway The games of lovers , the eternal self denial , the blindfolds we wear oh so tightly , blocking out all light . In the dream scape of a love we hid from the horrors of truths preferring to shelter ourselves in dreams, from the slaps of truth. Huddled close i reach to touch you. I need to be reasured , to be held close i beg you in dreams and awake . love me kill me all the same . Tell me sweet lies, hide the pain of real. make my daydreams come to me In rushes of promises , that will never be kept Deceive me with forevers Oh my partner in this merry go round world May we stay here forever ? I dont want to face being alone in my bed of black lace . screaming, crying bleeding . its just too real dont let truths hurt us in our world of sweet dreams Let us hide in the madness i cannot deal with the truth The rape of all i wanted belived to be so true I beg you to hide me now in this make belive world . All my dreams are there now i wove them into this i can face tomorrow or forever not with you . I come out each day and face reality and its bites and tears at my flesh . Scared i run to your lies and promises safe there i hide . The scars of promises,pain and dissapointment mark my soul my heart leaks from pain ., torn and shredded I wanted this to be our forever as i slip into insanity . Kiss me , kill me all the same to me as i run screaming to the world of it doesnt matter anymore Find me there among the flowers i am the rose who has long faded away |
........................... | Silent
Suffering |
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